Rambling Nights

Let me swim inside your soul and depicted little moments of sensual notions that invade stills in the essence of our time! Intoxicated thoughts of lust capture my heart and deliver various notes of inconstancy and fraudulent claims of love! No matter my thoughts enter your realm of inconspicuous remnants of our desire! I'll open this gateway of intimacy and exotic tryst that keeps our passion alive with a single heartbeat! Indict me for I'm always guilty of this feeling of insecure love for you! I want to bathe with you and hold all of you in my arms as I fantasize of you in strangers beds with me inclined to our own corruption. Kiss me with those tantalizing lips and provocative touches that seeps me on into a world of confusion! Your beauty is just a bonus to the personality wrapped around it! Your plumped soft lips, a view to kill for and a love to die for. You ride for me be cause you believe in my dreams the way you believe in our love! A love that only exist in my dreams and ambitions! Not all goals are achieved but I can only let you know where my feelings are! It broke me to know that you were not into me the way I was into you! I couldn't repair that wound. I still fantasize about that opportunity that I know is not there! Does that make me a pessimist? Unable to accept the truth that you are not interested In being with me! Such a great guy and yet so lonely! Alone in a labyrinth that all the walls show great qualities but empty directions!  I seem to be to be stuck with my demons and soft uttered perfections! Strangers that kiss my personality and send my physical essence home with a warm hug and a friendship. Am I that incompatible to those that crave happiness? I only dream of making her smile on her worst day and laugh on her best! To see her shine in the early morning as she kisses me. Joyous of the fact that I choose her to lay in my bed. A true sense of happiness that is not tainted with the negativity of  others. A real contentment! Something expressed on the days that Chris Cringle visits the homes of naive children and annual celebrations of my closeness to death! My soul feels empty with such hopes and aspirations for this foolish long term goal that seems to haunt my being. I just want to wake up to a woman that I love and adore to tell me that she is madly in love with me. My true self. The person that lays along beside her and divulges all his secrets and inner feelings. She's who I want! It seems that the alcohol is wearing off and that my free spirit has found its cell for the night. An appeal will have to wait till the next encounter with my inebriated self. Till then think of all that has been said and analyze it for truer feelings have not yet been discovered....