Tell me what is it that you feel you deserve. This expectation for things in which you can't even see clearly is borderline insane. Losing sanity seems to be the realm in which you want to dwell in. Your plate is full yet you are already asking for thirds. Perhaps dropping all your distractions is what you should do. Meaningful attempts of charm appear to be washed away with the day. The next day you have to put in the same work for something that doesnt require such charm. The essence of that entire situation is the exact opposite of what it is that you seem to do. On top of all that you grieve over a situational corpse. A dead partnership that is slowly decaying in your eyes. I want this so called future life, I see it in my everyday life but I can't touch it. I'm in no position to obtain such life. I'm tired... I don't want the time to pass me by and feel disconnected from my heir. I done talking about it. Words are nothing more that oxygen wasted or binary numbers on a screen. My wants are transparent and ordinary. So this anger that I feel will soon subside and I will continue my journey through this life. This sadness will eventually dissolve into desire. I just need to find the catalyst to this metamorphosis.
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